When I spend a lot of time around people who are really enthusiastic in their approval of me I get a temporary "high" and I start to feel more confident and I get into a basically manic state and I go out and I am intensely social in some large community for a while. Inevitably something happens that shakes my perception of my degree of welcome and I start pulling away. I generally feel more and more anxiety and I go through a period of dealing with intense abandonment fears and anxiety about the fact that I feel like everyone in the world hates me. After this happens I start baiting people who are my friends (in my point of view) and I am extremely emotionally unpredictable. I start getting my feelings hurt and I take everything as an insult no matter how I have to contort to make it sound that way. I made it so there was no way for people not to reject me. Before having kids I went into isolation for a while and I stopped talking to people. Then I would slowly inch my way out again over time and follow some new acquaintance into a new community and start the cycle over again.
Is that a correct description?