I haven't heard back from anyone in a while. I get the impression things are in flux. That's ok. I was approached about an opportunity this week which will use up a lot of the money. It will be a community building way to spend the money, but a very different community. I'm not going to say specifics yet, but I'm excited.
I don't do very well with trying to join groups unless I have a reason. I need a job. I need a role. I know that's fairly common. I'm trying to find a way back into a world I miss. I'm not sure what I want to get from the experience, exactly. I want to serve. That's part of it. Tonight someone laughed and told me I want status. Not really. I mean, yes, of course. I do love my status. But I want the chance to be able to be effective. I want influence more than I want status for the influence. I'm not sure I'm explaining well.
I will never be a big part of the public face of this opportunity. I will be back end. But that means I get to decide things about the back end. This is me rubbing my fingers together. What things to I want to see? Am I right about my priorities? I might get to find out. I have spent a lot of years sitting in the cheap seats watching other people try and have various success with their efforts. I don't know what all I am going to do in life, yet. But it will involve taking as many opportunities as I can.
Why do I want to do this? Because it's an opportunity that won't come again. Something that will make for great stories for the rest of my life. Something that irrevocably slams that closet door wide open. I like that. I like doing that now in one fell swoop. I don't know yet who or what role I will really have in the community. I'm looking forward to finding out.